...huuurrmm...

I was beyond boiling point when he told me his decision to go Uncle Chillis..I wanted to run away n back home..I'm currently much hotter than the sun noe..huh!!..wut to do..I joined them..one of the song is Nobody -Wondergirls..juz look at the lyrics..
You know I still love you baby
And it will never change
(Saranghae)

I want nobody nobody but you
I want nobody nobody but you
How can I be with another
I don’t want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Why are you trying to
To make me leave ya
I know what you’re thinking
Baby why aren’t you listening
How can I just
Just love someone else and
Forget you completely
When I know you still love me

Telling me you’re not good enough
My life with you is just too tough
You know it’s not right so
Just stop and come back boy
How can this be
When we were meant to be


I want nobody nobody but you
I want nobody nobody but you
How can I be with another
I don’t want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody but you
I want nobody nobody but you
How can I be with another
I don’t want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Why can’t we just
Just be like this
Cause it’s you that I need
And nothing else until the end
Who else can ever make me feel
The way I feel when I’m with you
No one will ever do

Telling me you’re not good enough
My life with you is just too tough
You know me enough so
You know what I need boy
Right next to you is where I need to be

I want nobody nobody but you
I want nobody nobody but you
How can I be with another
I don’t want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody but you
I want nobody nobody but you
How can I be with another
I don’t want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I don’t want no body, body
I don’t want no body, body

Honey you know it’s you that I want
It’s you that I need
Why can’t you see

I want nobody nobody but you
I want nobody nobody but you
How can I be with another
I don’t want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Back to the days
When we were so young and wild and free
Nothing else matters other than you and me
So tell me why can’t it be
Please let me live my life my way
Why do you push me away
I don’t want nobody nobody nobody nobody but you

huurrmm..not being able to control myself again last night, I shared some part of it with a fren on fb chatting, trying to distract myself..not feeling any tiredness, I couldn't stop thinking about it over and over again...I knew I shouldn't but I left him sitting behind me waiting for me to go to sleep..until I finally said I'm off to bed at 4am..

trying to get into slumber with such strong emotion worsens it..already puffy from previous hours cry, tears still flowed..it's so damn difficult to stop the train of thought while I tired to concentrate on not thinking and sleep..after an hour or so I forgot how I finally fell asleep..

my husbnd woke me and asked whether I want to follow them to go genting..knowing myself had not enough sleep I refused..my eyes wouldnt let me have any confidence anyway again today..I went back to sleep..apparently they haven't gone out..he was still in da room..believing dat I'm still sleeping...

Amarah

Wanita bukanlah perhiasan mata
Wanita adalah pelengkap di jiwa
Yang perlu kau corak dan bimbingi dia
Dan pasti bukan sekadar dengan kata-kata

Manis mulut lidah kau berapi
Tanpa sedari hati kau sakiti
Ku menghargai segalanya
Namun mungkin kau yang lupa
Fikirkanlah dengarkanlah suaraku

Kau tak bisa hapuskan amarah
Walaupun engkau tahu
Aku mahu kamu mahu
Aku tahu kamu tahu
Ku takkan tunjukkanku amarah
Kerana aku tahu segala yang berlaku
Tetap akan berlaku di mana kudratku
Dia yang menentu Dia yang menentu

Hati wanita terlalu rapuh kau genggami
Yang ingin selalu dimanja dan disayangi
Ku bukan tagih janji yang kau hancuri

...lie, lie, lie...

hurm...ello fren...Everyone would hate being lied to, especially if it's by your own friend, so don't lie! It might seem alright to lie occasionally, but once you lose your friend's trust, you may lose them forever, and that is something you surely do not want to happen...very pity of you...

Cintaku + Cintamu = Cintanya yang satu

Wahai Tuhan kami! Janganlah Engkau pikulkan kepada kami apa yang kami tidak terdaya memikulnya dan maafkanlah kami, serta ampunkanlah dosa kami dan berilah rahmat kepada kami...ayat 286, surah al-Baqarah.
Alhamdulillah...kehidupan aku skang ni bertambah baik...Sume ujian dan dugaan dari Allah aku terima dgn redha..I got use the fact dat Allah had decided to make our lives not easy and being a believer..and may Allh ease it on us and give us patience and ability and overcome pain and sorrow...maybe aku semakin lupa pada Allah..dat why Allah memberi ujian dan dugaan ni pada kehidupan aku..supaya aku mengingati padaNya..Ya Allah..paling yg aku lupa adalah mengaji..dah lama aku x mengaji...patutlah aku rasa diri aku kosong jew..rasa mcm x sedap hati jew...Ya Allah..ampunkanlah hambamu ni..sesungguhnya Kau lah yang maha pengampun...

...Bingkisan Doa...

Ya Allah… Seandainya telah engkau catatkan… Dia milikku tercipta buatku… Satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku… Titipkanlah kebahagian antara kami…. agar kemesraan itu abadi… Dan ya Allah… ya tuhanku yang maha mengasihi… Seiringkanlah kami melayari hidup ini… Ketepian yang sejahtera dan abadi…

Tetapi ya Allah… Seandainya telah engkau takdirkan… dia bukan miliku… Bawalah ia jauh dari pandanganku… Luputkanlah ia dari ingatanku… Dan peliharalah aku dari kekecewaan….

Serta ya Allah ya tuhanku yang maha mengerti… Berikanlah aku kekuatan… Melontar bayangannya jauh ke dada langit… Hilang bersama senja nan merah… agar aku bahagia… Walaupun tanpa bersama dengannya…

Dan ya Allah yang tercinta… Gantillah yang telah hilang… Tumbuhkanlah kembali yang telah patah… Walaupun tidak sama dengan dirinya…

Ya Allah ya tuhanku… Pasrahkanlah aku dengan takdirmu… Sesungguhnya apa yang telah engkau takdirkan… Adalah yang terbaik buat ku… kerana Engkau maha mengetahui… Segala yang terbaik buat hamba Mu ini…

Ya Allah… Cukuplah engkau sahaja yang menjadi pemeliharaku… Di dunia dan di akhirat… Dengarlah rintihan dari hamba Mu yang daif ini… Jangan engkau biarkan aku sendirian… Di dunia ini mahupun di akhirat… Menjuruskan aku kearah kemaksiatan dan kemungkaran… Maka kurniakanlah aku seorang pasangan yang beriman… Supaya aku dan dia sama-sama dapat membina kesejahteraan hidup… Ke jalan yang Engkau redhai… dan kurniakanlah padaku keturunan yang soleh….

Amin.. Ya Rabbal A’lamin.

..tercari-cari..

hee~..1st time wat blog nie..masih terkial-kial nak tekan mana..tertanya-tanya camne nak setting blog ni...huhu..xpew2..akanku xplore tuk mndpt ilmu ini...tp pelik yek.. camne bley terpikir nak wat blog sendiri ni..ni gara-gara cikgu zaidy la yg selalu suh aku tgk blog dia...huuurmmm..lagipun aku skang ni busan giler xtau nak watpe...at least ngan adenye blog ni xde la aku busan sgt...haaa~...

...huhuhu...

...takes two to three years for me whose relationship has broken up to begin to put my lives back together again. It sometimes takes five years for me to get over the emotional pain and trauma...